Day 13 - January 17th

Hi All,
    First I would like to thank everyone here and on "FB" for all the positive words of encouragement yesterday. I think the first week getting used to a diet..no wait a life style change. After all, if all you ever ate was junk before and now you are learning to eat better, it's more a life style change. This can be one of the hardest thinks to do. I'm not a smoker and never was but I have been very critical in the past of smokers. I mean what does it really take to quite? I would tell people all the time just put it down, get rid of what you have and don't buy anymore. It should be as easy as that. The usual response is it's addictive, It's habitual, it's just not that easy to stop. I'm beginning to understand what they were going through. I know bad eating does not have the additive properties as smoking. How do we know that to be true? Over the past week I have certainly had to struggle with the habitual part of eating better. Always wanting those between meal snacks or the last one before bed. Let's face it those snacks aren't celery and carrot sticks I was craving either. There has be be something to the types of foods we carve. I feel I now have a slightly better understanding of what others go through when quitting something.

      You would think that after yesterday's high I would be feeling amazing today. That's not the case. It doesn't have anything to do with the diet. Last night I started that warm feeling and ache you get when you are starting to feel sick. I'm not full out sick yet but I don't feel right and had a terrible evening sleeping, so today I just feel off. My fear is I do have a tendency to get sick often since I have a compromised immune system. I know with everything else I have already you about be, what else could be wrong? When I was 12 I had an accident an was seriously injured. My spleen was ruptured and removed. This leaves you with a weaker immune system. I am supposed to take shots to protect me from illnesses like pneumonia. However, over the years I have met others with the same problem and they have had the shots. Both of those people died in their thirties from pneumonia. I would much rather get sick more often and just bear through it. When I don't feel well I have a tendency not to eat much of anything. How will this effect the life style change that I am on. I mean I will probably not be sticking to a structured meal plan. When I'm sick I can't eat. Will I continue to lose weight or when I start back feeling better will I gain. I know that's the usual process when I ate poorly.
I guess I'll just have to hang in one day at a time and see how it goes. The real benefit is that I know as soon as I feel better the first thing I reach for doesn't have to be a big juicy burger.

Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little set backs keep you from your goals.

Thanx,
Looper