Hi All,
Today is a stressful day. I am still feeling better but I have that job interview today and it has my nerves up a little. Last night I had a regular dinner but my stomach was in knots all night. I've gone for interviews before, you think I'd be comfortable by now. I didn't even sleep well last night and in the middle of the night my nerves were so bad that I cheated. YES!! I cheated, it's been 4 weeks since I've had a soft drink but last night I just needed one. So I did it, I had one can of Pepsi around midnight. I think the guilt kept me up half the night. I felt bad about it, the fact that I had gone so long and gave into temptation. What are we suppose to do, from time too time we are all going to be confronted by the desire to go for our comfort zone. I know the key is how often we are tempted and give in. It's a sad thing to know that we tie our emotions to food but the key is to know this information and control it. I'd like to think that I could control these urges all the time but after last night I have some doubts. I mean, I've basically been riding on a high for the last three weeks. I lost weight each week and have felt good about the results and that's kept me motivated. Now I have to come to the realization that maybe it's not going to be so easy over the next year. I'm going to have to keep my guard up a little more to stay focused on my goals. I'm going to keep it short today because i need to get out of here for the interview, so I'll keep you all posted on the results (The Interview/Weekly Weigh-In) tomorrow. Wish me luck!!!
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goal!
Thanx,
Looper
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
It's Friday Again
Hi All,
Hope everyone is feeling as good as I am. This is the best I've felt all week and looking forward to the weekend. Yesterday went well with no major issues or challenges. That's the best that could be said this week. I'm more focused on Saturday right now. I have a job interview and would really like it to go well. I have more than a little interest in working for this company. So, that's where all my focus currently directed. I know that I should probably be more focused on my diet but I'm not, not today anyways. It's not easy trying to change your life style at the same time as having to look for work. Both are important, one is about your physical well being and the other your mental well being. Everyone needs to feel a value to who they are and for most of us that's the work we do. It's more than just that we are working. In my case as a father and husband it affects how I feel being able to support my family. I believe that to be successful one has to have a balance between the two. For me It's changing what and how I eat as well as keeping positive about looking for work. Both have specific goals fro me too achieve. So, I'll keep my fingers crossed and hope that my interview tomorrow goes as well as the last three weeks have gone for my diet.
Changing the subject, next week is Super Bowl Sunday. I'm feeling a bit anxious about that cause I usually spend the day in front of the T.V. with a large Nacho boat filled to the brim. Of all the things that I've changed, this is a tradition that I really enjoy. After all Nachos them selves aren't that bad. It's corn chips covered in veggies with some meat, cheese and salsa. Most of those ingredients aren't so bad. I suppose I could look for some Nacho chips made from whole wheat (do they make them?) and some low fat cheddar cheese. Instead of ground beef, I guess lean ground turkey and maybe a smaller portion. As you could guess by now, this is a tradition I'd really like to keep and It should be possible. The idea here is not to give up everything you love, it's to make better choices with the foods we eat. I think I've done that here by restricting myself in portion size and improving some if the items that I choose to add to the dish. In the end a healthier treat and a tradition saved. I know it's only been about 4 weeks but I am beginning to feel like I can do accomplish my goals in the long run.
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goal!
Thanx,
Looper
Hope everyone is feeling as good as I am. This is the best I've felt all week and looking forward to the weekend. Yesterday went well with no major issues or challenges. That's the best that could be said this week. I'm more focused on Saturday right now. I have a job interview and would really like it to go well. I have more than a little interest in working for this company. So, that's where all my focus currently directed. I know that I should probably be more focused on my diet but I'm not, not today anyways. It's not easy trying to change your life style at the same time as having to look for work. Both are important, one is about your physical well being and the other your mental well being. Everyone needs to feel a value to who they are and for most of us that's the work we do. It's more than just that we are working. In my case as a father and husband it affects how I feel being able to support my family. I believe that to be successful one has to have a balance between the two. For me It's changing what and how I eat as well as keeping positive about looking for work. Both have specific goals fro me too achieve. So, I'll keep my fingers crossed and hope that my interview tomorrow goes as well as the last three weeks have gone for my diet.
Changing the subject, next week is Super Bowl Sunday. I'm feeling a bit anxious about that cause I usually spend the day in front of the T.V. with a large Nacho boat filled to the brim. Of all the things that I've changed, this is a tradition that I really enjoy. After all Nachos them selves aren't that bad. It's corn chips covered in veggies with some meat, cheese and salsa. Most of those ingredients aren't so bad. I suppose I could look for some Nacho chips made from whole wheat (do they make them?) and some low fat cheddar cheese. Instead of ground beef, I guess lean ground turkey and maybe a smaller portion. As you could guess by now, this is a tradition I'd really like to keep and It should be possible. The idea here is not to give up everything you love, it's to make better choices with the foods we eat. I think I've done that here by restricting myself in portion size and improving some if the items that I choose to add to the dish. In the end a healthier treat and a tradition saved. I know it's only been about 4 weeks but I am beginning to feel like I can do accomplish my goals in the long run.
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goal!
Thanx,
Looper
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Feeling Better
Hi All,
I'm back and feeling better. It doesn't seem like a lot to take off 2 day's but when you don't feel well it's a ton.
The last 4 day's haven't been easy. For the most part I really didn't eat much but toast (whole wheat), tea and some soup. Most of the time I felt like I was starving. Tuesday night I did go overboard. I was so hungry I could eat my own arm (maybe not my own arm but someones). instead of the usual toast and tea I had 2 large plates of spaghetti. What a mistake, I spent the rest of the evening paying for it along with most of the overnight. It's not like I don't know any better. This isn't the first time I've been sick and done the exact same thing. It must be like everything else we do, we fall back into those comfortable habits all the time. This is why I'm calling this whole process a life style change and no just a diet. Soon or later I'm going to want to fall back into those old habits of mine. As this week proved to me (even though I was sick), their are factors that effect us and drive us back into our old comfort zones. We need to recognize the patterns and avoid or change them. Recognition is the key to this process. All be it a very difficult one. This week because i was under the weather I didn't recognize the behavior until it was to late. We like to think that we will recognize all of these factors at the beginning. This is not true, as I have begun to figure out. We start with a plan, we know what we want to accomplish and we think that we have planned for all contingencies. Not true, like every thing in live we can't know all the challenges on the road ahead. If we didn't when ever we came to that fork in the road we would have always taken the right path. Did you always take the right path, make the right decision or have you had to make corrections along the way? I know that I haven't been that lucky to always make the right choices. We need to keep are eyes open and take of the autopilot. Just because we think we know what we are doing doesn't mean we now what all the obstacles will be.
I'm not sure how to take this week cause I don't know what the end result will be yet on Sunday. If I've lost any additional weight is it a good thing or a bad thing. I mean I spent most of the week starving. If I gain weight, would that be normal for someone who hasn't eaten most of the week and then started back up again. How does the body react to something like that. Does it know that you were sick and progress as it should or does it take what ever it can to store fat because it doesn't know when the next real meal is coming. O.K. I know that I was sick, I know that the body knows that it was sick because it was fighting of the illness inside. It's those instinctual reactions that we and are bodies make I'm not sure about. The best example I can think of is the reaction of flight or fight. We see things happening around us and most people make an immediate decision to run or stay and fight. Let me put it this way, I'm in the house one night and wake up to it on fire. My instinct without thinking is to run, run my ass off and get out of there. On the other hand the fire department shows up and they are trained to control their natural emotions and the situation and run into the fire. It's a bit of an extreme example I know but I wonder if that is the same process with our bodies. The body does make all kinds of decisions that we never even think about consciencely. I guess at this point I'm over thinking it because I don't know what to expect this Sunday when I step on that scale fr the third time. I should probably take my own advice and wait for the results of the week and then make my plan for next week from that point on. I'll leave you with those thoughts for today, so
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from you goals!
Thanx,
Looper
I'm back and feeling better. It doesn't seem like a lot to take off 2 day's but when you don't feel well it's a ton.
The last 4 day's haven't been easy. For the most part I really didn't eat much but toast (whole wheat), tea and some soup. Most of the time I felt like I was starving. Tuesday night I did go overboard. I was so hungry I could eat my own arm (maybe not my own arm but someones). instead of the usual toast and tea I had 2 large plates of spaghetti. What a mistake, I spent the rest of the evening paying for it along with most of the overnight. It's not like I don't know any better. This isn't the first time I've been sick and done the exact same thing. It must be like everything else we do, we fall back into those comfortable habits all the time. This is why I'm calling this whole process a life style change and no just a diet. Soon or later I'm going to want to fall back into those old habits of mine. As this week proved to me (even though I was sick), their are factors that effect us and drive us back into our old comfort zones. We need to recognize the patterns and avoid or change them. Recognition is the key to this process. All be it a very difficult one. This week because i was under the weather I didn't recognize the behavior until it was to late. We like to think that we will recognize all of these factors at the beginning. This is not true, as I have begun to figure out. We start with a plan, we know what we want to accomplish and we think that we have planned for all contingencies. Not true, like every thing in live we can't know all the challenges on the road ahead. If we didn't when ever we came to that fork in the road we would have always taken the right path. Did you always take the right path, make the right decision or have you had to make corrections along the way? I know that I haven't been that lucky to always make the right choices. We need to keep are eyes open and take of the autopilot. Just because we think we know what we are doing doesn't mean we now what all the obstacles will be.
I'm not sure how to take this week cause I don't know what the end result will be yet on Sunday. If I've lost any additional weight is it a good thing or a bad thing. I mean I spent most of the week starving. If I gain weight, would that be normal for someone who hasn't eaten most of the week and then started back up again. How does the body react to something like that. Does it know that you were sick and progress as it should or does it take what ever it can to store fat because it doesn't know when the next real meal is coming. O.K. I know that I was sick, I know that the body knows that it was sick because it was fighting of the illness inside. It's those instinctual reactions that we and are bodies make I'm not sure about. The best example I can think of is the reaction of flight or fight. We see things happening around us and most people make an immediate decision to run or stay and fight. Let me put it this way, I'm in the house one night and wake up to it on fire. My instinct without thinking is to run, run my ass off and get out of there. On the other hand the fire department shows up and they are trained to control their natural emotions and the situation and run into the fire. It's a bit of an extreme example I know but I wonder if that is the same process with our bodies. The body does make all kinds of decisions that we never even think about consciencely. I guess at this point I'm over thinking it because I don't know what to expect this Sunday when I step on that scale fr the third time. I should probably take my own advice and wait for the results of the week and then make my plan for next week from that point on. I'll leave you with those thoughts for today, so
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from you goals!
Thanx,
Looper
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Still Under the weather.
Hi All,
This whole process has been great for me. My own public journal to keep me focused and on track with all the support that I can muster. Since starting I've had a ton of support along side the challenges and success. Some day's are still just tougher than others. Today is one of those day's. For 3 day's now I have had a bit of a stomach flu and today is no different. I've been unable to eat anything but toast and soup. No plan here these days, just trying to get by. I will not sit here and bore you with the details of being sick. It's even taking me twice as long just to write this small paragraph. I can't stop making spelling errors that need to be corrected. So I'm going to sign off the journal today and return only after i am feeling better. That should be just a couple day's without an entry.
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let the little setbacks keep you from your goal!
Thanx,
Looper
This whole process has been great for me. My own public journal to keep me focused and on track with all the support that I can muster. Since starting I've had a ton of support along side the challenges and success. Some day's are still just tougher than others. Today is one of those day's. For 3 day's now I have had a bit of a stomach flu and today is no different. I've been unable to eat anything but toast and soup. No plan here these days, just trying to get by. I will not sit here and bore you with the details of being sick. It's even taking me twice as long just to write this small paragraph. I can't stop making spelling errors that need to be corrected. So I'm going to sign off the journal today and return only after i am feeling better. That should be just a couple day's without an entry.
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let the little setbacks keep you from your goal!
Thanx,
Looper
Monday, January 24, 2011
Another Challen ge
Hi All,
Short and sweet today. Yesterday started out so good with the loss of 3.5lbs.. This is hard enough already. I really don't need another challenge to the process. About mid afternoon I started to feel a bit under the weather. By dinner time my stomach was doing it's own thing. My head was pounding , I was freezing and no it wasn't cold because of the -40C outside. I couldn't eat a thing last night. My wife finally got me to have a cup of tea and some chicken soup. I think it made me feel worst. I thought I was going to bring it up for sure. Luckily that didn't happen.
Today It's 1:10 pm and I just got out of bed. I don't feel any better and I'm not looking to really eat at all. Who needs another challenge at the start of this process. It just seems that every day their is a new one I didn't even consider. I mean I really don't want to eat right now but at the same time as I feel sick to my stomach I am starving. I can feel it. I know that I should eat something to keep up my strength and immune system. Like I said eating makes me feel worst but I am so hungry I could eat almost anything. That's not the solution either. Anyway i really can't keep this up today so I'll sign off for now and let everyone know how I'm doing tomorrow. I really need to get back into bed.
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let the little setbacks keep you from you goal!
Thanx,
Looper
Short and sweet today. Yesterday started out so good with the loss of 3.5lbs.. This is hard enough already. I really don't need another challenge to the process. About mid afternoon I started to feel a bit under the weather. By dinner time my stomach was doing it's own thing. My head was pounding , I was freezing and no it wasn't cold because of the -40C outside. I couldn't eat a thing last night. My wife finally got me to have a cup of tea and some chicken soup. I think it made me feel worst. I thought I was going to bring it up for sure. Luckily that didn't happen.
Today It's 1:10 pm and I just got out of bed. I don't feel any better and I'm not looking to really eat at all. Who needs another challenge at the start of this process. It just seems that every day their is a new one I didn't even consider. I mean I really don't want to eat right now but at the same time as I feel sick to my stomach I am starving. I can feel it. I know that I should eat something to keep up my strength and immune system. Like I said eating makes me feel worst but I am so hungry I could eat almost anything. That's not the solution either. Anyway i really can't keep this up today so I'll sign off for now and let everyone know how I'm doing tomorrow. I really need to get back into bed.
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let the little setbacks keep you from you goal!
Thanx,
Looper
Sunday, January 23, 2011
I've made it 2 weeks
Happy Happy Sunday to all,
So last night the wife and I went out to a friends for dinner and it was great. I did mention earlier in the week that the fiend has been following the blog and very supportive. She even traded e-mail with my wife about any concerns for my diet with the dinner. Well she took it into consideration alright. Dinner started with a nice salad with light dressing followed by a very tasty vegetarian lasagna. This lasagna tasted so good, you couldn't tell their was no meat to the dish at all. By the way, she really can't cook so you purchased the lasagna at M&M Meat shops. In the end, I drank bottled water all night, had a great meal with a fantastic supportive friend. You really can't ask for a better night out than that. We didn't end up leaving until just after 3:00 am.
I'm going to take a side bar moment here right now. Since I started this process, I was looking for a form of support to keep me motivated though this lifestyle change I've embarked on. In the last 2 weeks I have received message in many diffident forms supporting my initiative. Several people have even called me an inspiration. It is very important for me to communicate with all of you that this process and your support has been my inspiration. Every day people try to do what I'm doing now. Many fail and many succeed for a whole lot of different reasons. My success now is because I'm in the right place at the right time with the support of great people. It's important to me that you all know this. Too my friend from dinner last night, you are an old and dear friend that we love and regard as family. The life style changes that you have under gone over the last year are truly an inspiration to the people around you and your children. I am privileged and honored to call you a friend.
Side bar complete. So I guess everyone is wondering how I did this week. Guess, just one guess. Am I up, down or flat for the week. After all last week was a big jump. I am happy to say that the weight loss has continued. I started this venture starting at 297lbs. Last week I was down to 284lbs, a 13lbs difference and today I'm at 280.5Lbs. That's an additional 3.5lbs. I have to say, if any one told me I would loss 16.5lbs in the first 2 weeks I would have told them they were nuts!!! I've tried dieting before and working out at the gym with a trainer and never had these results before. As I ranted about earlier in the week though, I was always working to someone else's goals. Everybody has their own motives and it's not really to see me lost all the weight fast and move on. It's to control the process and keep a client for as long as possible. After years of struggling with this I feel that is the true motivation. Well anyway no rant today, only a pat on the back and a plan for the week ahead. One day at a time, one week at a time, 1 pound at a time. In the end I will not only have lost the weight but regained some control over my health. That's the real prize, being health and around to see my kids grow up to great parents and me as a fantastic grandparent. Below is my weekly picture of the scale, so you can all enjoy this ride with me. Till tomorrow and next weeks weigh-in.
So last night the wife and I went out to a friends for dinner and it was great. I did mention earlier in the week that the fiend has been following the blog and very supportive. She even traded e-mail with my wife about any concerns for my diet with the dinner. Well she took it into consideration alright. Dinner started with a nice salad with light dressing followed by a very tasty vegetarian lasagna. This lasagna tasted so good, you couldn't tell their was no meat to the dish at all. By the way, she really can't cook so you purchased the lasagna at M&M Meat shops. In the end, I drank bottled water all night, had a great meal with a fantastic supportive friend. You really can't ask for a better night out than that. We didn't end up leaving until just after 3:00 am.
I'm going to take a side bar moment here right now. Since I started this process, I was looking for a form of support to keep me motivated though this lifestyle change I've embarked on. In the last 2 weeks I have received message in many diffident forms supporting my initiative. Several people have even called me an inspiration. It is very important for me to communicate with all of you that this process and your support has been my inspiration. Every day people try to do what I'm doing now. Many fail and many succeed for a whole lot of different reasons. My success now is because I'm in the right place at the right time with the support of great people. It's important to me that you all know this. Too my friend from dinner last night, you are an old and dear friend that we love and regard as family. The life style changes that you have under gone over the last year are truly an inspiration to the people around you and your children. I am privileged and honored to call you a friend.
Side bar complete. So I guess everyone is wondering how I did this week. Guess, just one guess. Am I up, down or flat for the week. After all last week was a big jump. I am happy to say that the weight loss has continued. I started this venture starting at 297lbs. Last week I was down to 284lbs, a 13lbs difference and today I'm at 280.5Lbs. That's an additional 3.5lbs. I have to say, if any one told me I would loss 16.5lbs in the first 2 weeks I would have told them they were nuts!!! I've tried dieting before and working out at the gym with a trainer and never had these results before. As I ranted about earlier in the week though, I was always working to someone else's goals. Everybody has their own motives and it's not really to see me lost all the weight fast and move on. It's to control the process and keep a client for as long as possible. After years of struggling with this I feel that is the true motivation. Well anyway no rant today, only a pat on the back and a plan for the week ahead. One day at a time, one week at a time, 1 pound at a time. In the end I will not only have lost the weight but regained some control over my health. That's the real prize, being health and around to see my kids grow up to great parents and me as a fantastic grandparent. Below is my weekly picture of the scale, so you can all enjoy this ride with me. Till tomorrow and next weeks weigh-in.
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little set backs keep you from your goals.
Thanx,
Looper
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