Hi All,
Like the title says it's been a bad week. In the end I think I broke all my rules for success. Everyday was something different. From how I felt and not eating properly or enough to a 1/2 bag of chips in the middle of the night last night. This must be like other things you hear about such as giving up smoking. Somewhere around the 3rd or 4th week you are stressed by the whole thing. Either you get through it or you break. This week I broke a little for a whole bunch or reason (most of which I spoke about all week long). For me the biggest factor has been stress. I've been extremely stressed about finding work and the processes you have to go through to get the job. Not to mention the amount of time it seems to take during the interview process. You spend so much time waiting for some kind of response. Lately the responses in the end have not been positive. You spend so much time invested in the process, you make it to the end and finally you don't get the job. This takes a lot out of your self esteem. We all know what's next, your self esteem is low and you need to find a way to feel good. Food is the answer or at least in the past it has been for me.
In my case this week that has been the pattern I would follow. Last Saturday I had yet again another positive interview with good feedback. The prospective employer indicated that she wanted me to go forward in the process to the last step and meet the owner of the company. I was supposed to wait for her contact this week to set up the final step. Day after day went by with no word and day after day my self esteem would shrink. Finally yesterday I initiated contact looking for some indication that the process was still to continue or not. Late in the day I received word that I was still in the running for the job but it was too late. My self esteem was low and I just needed something to pick me up. Maybe I should have used some of this week suggestions in place of the food like going for a swim. It's possible that might have made me feel better but until next time I'll never know.
Tomorrow is weigh in day and since it's the end of week four it is also my monthly measurements. I don't suspect that I lost anything this week. On the contrary I fear I might have gain a little back. However my measurements should have had some reduction as I am certain that I did not gain all of it back. After all most of the week I didn't eat enough and it was only yesterday that I ate poorly. We will just have to wait and see. So until tomorrow;
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goals!
Thanx,
Looper
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
Friday Again
Hey All,
First I have to thank both James and Jack for the advice I was looking for from yesterday's post. Both have provided me with some really good ideas to increase physical activity on a day to day basis. I am going to put both ideas to work in the next week. I'm not putting it off, I just need to get the weights and find an indoor pool in my area and it's operating hours. So again, thanx guys it's good to know that this process for support actually works. Remember it you need it I've got your backs as well.
This week has been a terrible week. I've been under the weather, not really motivated and after reading the article (I provided the other day), I have been making several mistakes. Most of the week I have had only 2 meals a day and they weren't exactly to plan. I wasn't eating junk just not properly. I realized that I have made several mistakes like skipping meals and finding myself very hungry later in the evenings. Most of the week I didn't do anything about it but as I started feeling better I have eaten later in the night to satisfy the hunger. Again, not junk food but still late in the evening and even just before bed. I don't suspect that I am going to have a positive week as far as the results are concerned. I am however going t wait until Sunday to get the results.
Each week seems to present itself with new challenges that I need to figure out how to handle. This is why it is so hard to handle, keeping on track is difficult. Not just because it's hard to eat a certain way but because you are changing your way of thinking. It doesn't sound like a hard thing to do cause you only plan or picture the change under perfect circumstances. Now that's not really how it works. Everyday you need to deal with new challenges that knock you off track. Why? Because we have a lifetime of habits that have developed dealing with most scenarios in our lives. It's a very natural process, it's why we react to situations the way we do. This is what I am coming to realize is the one true challenge. We want to make a change but we don't have that lifetime of good habits for every scenario. This is what we need to develop through this process. Well, that's what I'm thinking right now, if you have anything to add please do so, I'd like to know what you all think.
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goal!
Thanx,
Looper
First I have to thank both James and Jack for the advice I was looking for from yesterday's post. Both have provided me with some really good ideas to increase physical activity on a day to day basis. I am going to put both ideas to work in the next week. I'm not putting it off, I just need to get the weights and find an indoor pool in my area and it's operating hours. So again, thanx guys it's good to know that this process for support actually works. Remember it you need it I've got your backs as well.
This week has been a terrible week. I've been under the weather, not really motivated and after reading the article (I provided the other day), I have been making several mistakes. Most of the week I have had only 2 meals a day and they weren't exactly to plan. I wasn't eating junk just not properly. I realized that I have made several mistakes like skipping meals and finding myself very hungry later in the evenings. Most of the week I didn't do anything about it but as I started feeling better I have eaten later in the night to satisfy the hunger. Again, not junk food but still late in the evening and even just before bed. I don't suspect that I am going to have a positive week as far as the results are concerned. I am however going t wait until Sunday to get the results.
Each week seems to present itself with new challenges that I need to figure out how to handle. This is why it is so hard to handle, keeping on track is difficult. Not just because it's hard to eat a certain way but because you are changing your way of thinking. It doesn't sound like a hard thing to do cause you only plan or picture the change under perfect circumstances. Now that's not really how it works. Everyday you need to deal with new challenges that knock you off track. Why? Because we have a lifetime of habits that have developed dealing with most scenarios in our lives. It's a very natural process, it's why we react to situations the way we do. This is what I am coming to realize is the one true challenge. We want to make a change but we don't have that lifetime of good habits for every scenario. This is what we need to develop through this process. Well, that's what I'm thinking right now, if you have anything to add please do so, I'd like to know what you all think.
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goal!
Thanx,
Looper
Thursday, February 3, 2011
My Age is showing
Hi everybody,
Wow was yesterday ever a good day for those who love snow. I like the weather also, there is nothing more beautiful than a snow covered scenic view. However, who knew that shoveling snow would give away my age. Yesterday was supposed to be a great day for me to get outside and get some good exercise. I have been increasing my physical activity but yesterday was just to much for me to handle. I went outside with my son to shovel and the differences were incredible. He started with the walking path to the front stairs while I started to shovel the front end of the Tempo to the street. He had all this light fluffy snow (not compacted) while I have the snow that had been compacted and piled over by the street plow that had gone by out street. The boy was shoveling like he was in a race. His shovel was moving at a pace at least 3 times faster than mine. Meanwhile, I was moving at a snails pace. The snow was hard, deep and compacted. It felt like every third or fourth shovel full I needed to stop and catch my breath. As time moved on I slowed down even more and found myself breathing extremely heavy. Now here comes my son to help me cause he was finished with the walk way and he begins to shovel with the same veracity he showed on the walk way. I stood by and watched him complete the balance of the driveway in half the time it took me to complete about 1/3 of the job. I never felt so old as I did at that moment.
This is another reason why I am in the beginning of this process to change my physical health and well being. It stared out really easy the first couple of weeks with only minor setbacks. Now it seems like it's getting tougher each day. Last week through this week I dealt with being sick and that really threw me off my plan. This week still isn't completely on track yet because I still hadn't been at my best. The challenge now seems to be getting back on track with everything. I wasn't feeling well, so I wasn't involved with the grocery shopping which means the set meal plan for the week wasn't used. The last two weeks the physical activity has been low, more like pre-plan levels. It feels like I have lost control of the process and I need to get it back and fast or I could lose it totally.
The plan now is to get out tomorrow night with my meal plan for the week and complete the grocery shopping. Second I need to find away to increase my activity level. The exercises at home have been difficult because i don't really have a place to do them. Getting outside for my daily walks has also been difficult because of the temperature (I have an allergy to the cold). I can't be outside for more than 10 minutes at a time. Last year when I had the gym membership I did do a lot on the treadmill and that felt good. This year I don't think I could even do as much as I was doing then. Does anybody have a treadmill they would like to give away? If so, I would be happy to take it off your hands. If you have any ideas you would like to share about how to get my activity level up, I have an open mind. That's all for today so;
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goals!
Thanx,
Looper
Wow was yesterday ever a good day for those who love snow. I like the weather also, there is nothing more beautiful than a snow covered scenic view. However, who knew that shoveling snow would give away my age. Yesterday was supposed to be a great day for me to get outside and get some good exercise. I have been increasing my physical activity but yesterday was just to much for me to handle. I went outside with my son to shovel and the differences were incredible. He started with the walking path to the front stairs while I started to shovel the front end of the Tempo to the street. He had all this light fluffy snow (not compacted) while I have the snow that had been compacted and piled over by the street plow that had gone by out street. The boy was shoveling like he was in a race. His shovel was moving at a pace at least 3 times faster than mine. Meanwhile, I was moving at a snails pace. The snow was hard, deep and compacted. It felt like every third or fourth shovel full I needed to stop and catch my breath. As time moved on I slowed down even more and found myself breathing extremely heavy. Now here comes my son to help me cause he was finished with the walk way and he begins to shovel with the same veracity he showed on the walk way. I stood by and watched him complete the balance of the driveway in half the time it took me to complete about 1/3 of the job. I never felt so old as I did at that moment.
This is another reason why I am in the beginning of this process to change my physical health and well being. It stared out really easy the first couple of weeks with only minor setbacks. Now it seems like it's getting tougher each day. Last week through this week I dealt with being sick and that really threw me off my plan. This week still isn't completely on track yet because I still hadn't been at my best. The challenge now seems to be getting back on track with everything. I wasn't feeling well, so I wasn't involved with the grocery shopping which means the set meal plan for the week wasn't used. The last two weeks the physical activity has been low, more like pre-plan levels. It feels like I have lost control of the process and I need to get it back and fast or I could lose it totally.
The plan now is to get out tomorrow night with my meal plan for the week and complete the grocery shopping. Second I need to find away to increase my activity level. The exercises at home have been difficult because i don't really have a place to do them. Getting outside for my daily walks has also been difficult because of the temperature (I have an allergy to the cold). I can't be outside for more than 10 minutes at a time. Last year when I had the gym membership I did do a lot on the treadmill and that felt good. This year I don't think I could even do as much as I was doing then. Does anybody have a treadmill they would like to give away? If so, I would be happy to take it off your hands. If you have any ideas you would like to share about how to get my activity level up, I have an open mind. That's all for today so;
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goals!
Thanx,
Looper
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Snow Day!!
Hi All,
It's the first real snow day of 2011. Yippee!!! I'm not being sarcastic at all, it looks beautiful outside. It may not feel that way but that's how I chose to see it. The stomach is starting to settle down a little, finally. Now I need to get myself back into the proper routing again. Today is a great day for doing just that. I will have the opportunity to get outside several times today to do some shoveling. Shoveling is a great exercise when done right. It's important to use the correct tools and not over do it. Me can use either the shovel or the snow blower. Snow blowers are fun but you don't get a real workout using one.
Later this afternoon before the wife comes home I'm going to have to get out there and clear the driveway.
The great thing is I get to use my military parka while I shovel. See, I have an original 1954 Canadian air force military parka. It was my late father in-laws, Given to him by his nephew many years ago. After his passing my mother in-law gave the parka to me. It's military green with a real fur trim around the hoody piece. It weighs about 20 pounds to begin with and it's double stitched everywhere. This this will not easily come apart. After 57 years it did need a new zipper straight up the front of it. I took it to the tailors to have a new heavy duty zipper put on. It was ready in two weeks at a cost of $45.00 (just for the zipper). It's so good and warm that previously I'd worn it out to shovel in -20 temperatures with only an undershirt on beneath the coat and I was sweating. Now that's the kind of coat everyone needs to have at their disposal. Luckily for me I will be able to get some good exercise in today with that parka on. I know it sounds like I love this coat but I DO!!! It's fantastic!
I found a great article yesterday about the 3 Mistakes most people make while dieting and eating healthier. I wanted to share this with all of so, please take the time to read visit the link and read the article. The truth is after reading it, I realized that I have made these three mistakes almost everyday so far. I've had some success with my program so far and would hate to think that at the same time I could be sabotaging me progress. With that I'll leave it there for today and remind everyone, "If you have to be out today, please be safe and take your time".
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goal!
Thanx,
Looper
It's the first real snow day of 2011. Yippee!!! I'm not being sarcastic at all, it looks beautiful outside. It may not feel that way but that's how I chose to see it. The stomach is starting to settle down a little, finally. Now I need to get myself back into the proper routing again. Today is a great day for doing just that. I will have the opportunity to get outside several times today to do some shoveling. Shoveling is a great exercise when done right. It's important to use the correct tools and not over do it. Me can use either the shovel or the snow blower. Snow blowers are fun but you don't get a real workout using one.
Later this afternoon before the wife comes home I'm going to have to get out there and clear the driveway.
The great thing is I get to use my military parka while I shovel. See, I have an original 1954 Canadian air force military parka. It was my late father in-laws, Given to him by his nephew many years ago. After his passing my mother in-law gave the parka to me. It's military green with a real fur trim around the hoody piece. It weighs about 20 pounds to begin with and it's double stitched everywhere. This this will not easily come apart. After 57 years it did need a new zipper straight up the front of it. I took it to the tailors to have a new heavy duty zipper put on. It was ready in two weeks at a cost of $45.00 (just for the zipper). It's so good and warm that previously I'd worn it out to shovel in -20 temperatures with only an undershirt on beneath the coat and I was sweating. Now that's the kind of coat everyone needs to have at their disposal. Luckily for me I will be able to get some good exercise in today with that parka on. I know it sounds like I love this coat but I DO!!! It's fantastic!
I found a great article yesterday about the 3 Mistakes most people make while dieting and eating healthier. I wanted to share this with all of so, please take the time to read visit the link and read the article. The truth is after reading it, I realized that I have made these three mistakes almost everyday so far. I've had some success with my program so far and would hate to think that at the same time I could be sabotaging me progress. With that I'll leave it there for today and remind everyone, "If you have to be out today, please be safe and take your time".
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goal!
Thanx,
Looper
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Running Around
Hi everybody,
Sorry about the late posting but I was running around a bit today. Needed to get my passport application in cause if I get that job I'll need it for the training down in Burlington, Vermont. So, like yesterday I am feeling better but not right.
Last night we had a nice chicken dinner with rice and peas. There was nothing wrong with the food but I still couldn't eat the whole thing. Then afterwards my stomach was again upset. Today isn't fairing any better. I had some tea this morning before going out and I cut myself some tomato pizza for lunch. The same result, I couldn't eat all I cut out (not much either compared to what I would eat in the past). My stomach is still upset. I can't seem to settle it down. I know the flu is in full swing in our area but this is getting to be a bit much. It's been over a week now and I'll I keep doing is going back and forth with this bug. I just want it to be over NOW!!!.
I think we will be having a meatloaf for dinner tonight. I hope it fairs better than the rest of the food I'm eating lately. So, I'm just going to plan to take it easy the rest of today and tomorrow (since we have a snow storm coming) and see how it goes from there. I'll leave you there and say if you are anywhere from Chicago through the East, watch the roads with the weather coming and if you don't need to go out DON'T.
STAY SAFE!!!!!!
Thanx,
Looper
Sorry about the late posting but I was running around a bit today. Needed to get my passport application in cause if I get that job I'll need it for the training down in Burlington, Vermont. So, like yesterday I am feeling better but not right.
Last night we had a nice chicken dinner with rice and peas. There was nothing wrong with the food but I still couldn't eat the whole thing. Then afterwards my stomach was again upset. Today isn't fairing any better. I had some tea this morning before going out and I cut myself some tomato pizza for lunch. The same result, I couldn't eat all I cut out (not much either compared to what I would eat in the past). My stomach is still upset. I can't seem to settle it down. I know the flu is in full swing in our area but this is getting to be a bit much. It's been over a week now and I'll I keep doing is going back and forth with this bug. I just want it to be over NOW!!!.
I think we will be having a meatloaf for dinner tonight. I hope it fairs better than the rest of the food I'm eating lately. So, I'm just going to plan to take it easy the rest of today and tomorrow (since we have a snow storm coming) and see how it goes from there. I'll leave you there and say if you are anywhere from Chicago through the East, watch the roads with the weather coming and if you don't need to go out DON'T.
STAY SAFE!!!!!!
Thanx,
Looper
Monday, January 31, 2011
Week 4- Monday
Hi everyone,
Hope you are all doing well, because I am still not feeling well. The last couple of day's I started to feel better from that stomach flu but it just doesn't want to let go. Yesterday after updating by blog I sat down to have some toast (2 slices/Whole Wheat) and a cup of tea. By the time I got to the second piece of toast I was forcing it down. It felt like it wasn't going to stay down at all. Luckily it did stay down however the rest of the day got progressively worst. Last night I felt like I was a 50 year old women having menopausal hot flashes. I know it's not the same but I was acting a lot like my wife did when she went through menopause. One minute I'm freezing the next minute you can see the sweat running off my head. It is not fun! Since some women can go through this for years, I am extremely happy to be a man. At least I know that the way I feel right now will likely be over within a few days.
Having said all that, anyone got any suggestions because eating right now feels like a non-option again?
Anything, I'll take anything you have got to try to settle my stomach. No really, any suggestions! I am likely to have that final interview this week for the job I spoke about last week and I can't do it like this and blowing it is not an option. I'll thank you all in advance for your advice.
Other that that yesterday was still a good day. I was down an additional pound and a half and feeling really good about it. I even got out to the store in the afternoon to pick up a few things. I was interesting to say the least. My son cam with me and at several opportunities he asked me to pick up some snack foods (Chips, etc.). I remained strong and did not give in to his demands, so not bad snacks in the house. There was I small temptation I faced. I was in the refrigerated cheese aisle and found myself looking for the Philadelphia cream cheese onion dip. This is one of my all time favorites and for some reason in the last year the store are not carrying this flavor very often. So, when I see It I usually pick 1 up with a big bag of chips to snack on. Now I'd already said no to the chips but found myself thinking I would change my mind if they had my dip. The temptation was strong indeed. I need to tell you I was extremely pleased to see my flavor was in stock. I stood there for a few seconds pondering my choice (I did not pick up the container). Finally I just walked away. One or two months ago I would not have done that, as a matter of fact I did not on more than one occasion. I think yesterday was a great day for me in the end. I may not have been feeling well but I showed myself that I can make the right decisions. I can change my ways. That's all for today so,
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goal!
Thanx,
Looper
p.s.
Remember if you are in Canada to electronically sign the petition on the right hand side of my blog to stop the government from allowing Telecom Companies from metering your Internet usage.
Hope you are all doing well, because I am still not feeling well. The last couple of day's I started to feel better from that stomach flu but it just doesn't want to let go. Yesterday after updating by blog I sat down to have some toast (2 slices/Whole Wheat) and a cup of tea. By the time I got to the second piece of toast I was forcing it down. It felt like it wasn't going to stay down at all. Luckily it did stay down however the rest of the day got progressively worst. Last night I felt like I was a 50 year old women having menopausal hot flashes. I know it's not the same but I was acting a lot like my wife did when she went through menopause. One minute I'm freezing the next minute you can see the sweat running off my head. It is not fun! Since some women can go through this for years, I am extremely happy to be a man. At least I know that the way I feel right now will likely be over within a few days.
Having said all that, anyone got any suggestions because eating right now feels like a non-option again?
Anything, I'll take anything you have got to try to settle my stomach. No really, any suggestions! I am likely to have that final interview this week for the job I spoke about last week and I can't do it like this and blowing it is not an option. I'll thank you all in advance for your advice.
Other that that yesterday was still a good day. I was down an additional pound and a half and feeling really good about it. I even got out to the store in the afternoon to pick up a few things. I was interesting to say the least. My son cam with me and at several opportunities he asked me to pick up some snack foods (Chips, etc.). I remained strong and did not give in to his demands, so not bad snacks in the house. There was I small temptation I faced. I was in the refrigerated cheese aisle and found myself looking for the Philadelphia cream cheese onion dip. This is one of my all time favorites and for some reason in the last year the store are not carrying this flavor very often. So, when I see It I usually pick 1 up with a big bag of chips to snack on. Now I'd already said no to the chips but found myself thinking I would change my mind if they had my dip. The temptation was strong indeed. I need to tell you I was extremely pleased to see my flavor was in stock. I stood there for a few seconds pondering my choice (I did not pick up the container). Finally I just walked away. One or two months ago I would not have done that, as a matter of fact I did not on more than one occasion. I think yesterday was a great day for me in the end. I may not have been feeling well but I showed myself that I can make the right decisions. I can change my ways. That's all for today so,
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goal!
Thanx,
Looper
p.s.
Remember if you are in Canada to electronically sign the petition on the right hand side of my blog to stop the government from allowing Telecom Companies from metering your Internet usage.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
A Week in Review (Week 3)
Hey Everyone,
Well here it is the end of week 3 ans what a sh**ty week it was for me. I spent most of the week sick and not eating much of anything. When I was feeling better I ate wrong and paid for it and I gave into temptation. How much worst could a week be for someone trying t make a lifestyle change? You could add the stress of job interviews since I've been out of a real job for a year now. That's the kind of week it's been for me. Oh, and lets not forget because of being sick I really wasn't what you would can very active on the exercise front. It certainly makes it a little harder to stay motivated when it's that tough. I guess these are the things that make it hard for everyone to stay the course. As focused as I am now on my health, weight and the things I need to do to improve all that it's still hard.
What I find that's making this whole process easier is this journal (blog). It forces me to really look at the things that are going on in my life, recognize them and confront them. I know I've already said this a few times now but it really does bare repeating again and again. Sharing with all of you (and there are many more than I ever expected) has kept me honest. honest with myself and everyone following the blog. I've been touched by the support that not only don't I want to lie to myself but to all of you as well. In the past it seemed easy to lie to myself, It's o.k. I didn't really eat that much more than I should. It's only one bag of chips, one Pepsi for now. Until ultimately It was one of those really big bags of chips from Costco and 4/5 Pepsi's a night. It's no wonder I found myself in this position again but things really feel different now. I don't feel alone dealing with this problem anymore. The family has even starting to follow along a bit easier now. I'm the one they look too now for the weekly meal plan. That feels amazing!!!
I've also come to realize that this journal isn't about just my eating habits. I thought that when I started this that all it would be but it isn't. I now know that the process involves everything in my life. That's why this week has been the toughest yet. It is also affected by those things in life that cause us stress. In my case the biggest stresser has been my need to find work. The stress had me looking for my comfort zone this week and we all know that's food. I've been on other interviews in the last year but didn't get the jobs and until you've bee unemployed for a year, I don't think you can fully understand the degree of stress it puts on one. Even now after yesterday's interview went so positively, there is still another level to go through and I still might not get the job. I have been there before, at the last stage of the process and someone else got the job. Now I have to meet with the owner of the company and if he likes me I'm in. You want to keep positive all the time but it's tough. That's the stress that makes me want to run for a large pizza, a steak and pepperoni sub with the sauce on the side (from La Belle Province) or anything else that's gotten me here. But, I won't do it. It would make me feel good for now however in the long run I know it's not what's best for me. So I'll refrain and save it up to treat myself next weekend with my annual Nachos for Superbowl and make it a celebration too cause I'm going to lock down this job.
So to the final point. It's the end of week three and how did I do. Well from the earlier paragraphs, I know it doesn't sound to good, so how bad is it really? You be the judge and check out this weeks photo.
Ya you see right, it says 279lbs. That's a pound and a half less than last week. I know it's not a lot but it is certainly better than I expected. So for three weeks now I have consistently loss weight. I have now gone from 297lbs to 279lbs. That looks really funny doesn't it the reversal of the 97 to 79. I'll take it any day. That's a total of 18lbs and it feels great. This week I even wore pants to the interview that I haven't been able to wear in a year. These are the things along with all your support that are keeping me motivated. I will achieve my goal in a year to be just under 200lbs, I can see it. Next week it's not just my weight but my monthly measurements, so we'll see how much if any inches I have lost and I know there is some. Until then,
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from you goals!!
Thanx,
Looper
Well here it is the end of week 3 ans what a sh**ty week it was for me. I spent most of the week sick and not eating much of anything. When I was feeling better I ate wrong and paid for it and I gave into temptation. How much worst could a week be for someone trying t make a lifestyle change? You could add the stress of job interviews since I've been out of a real job for a year now. That's the kind of week it's been for me. Oh, and lets not forget because of being sick I really wasn't what you would can very active on the exercise front. It certainly makes it a little harder to stay motivated when it's that tough. I guess these are the things that make it hard for everyone to stay the course. As focused as I am now on my health, weight and the things I need to do to improve all that it's still hard.
What I find that's making this whole process easier is this journal (blog). It forces me to really look at the things that are going on in my life, recognize them and confront them. I know I've already said this a few times now but it really does bare repeating again and again. Sharing with all of you (and there are many more than I ever expected) has kept me honest. honest with myself and everyone following the blog. I've been touched by the support that not only don't I want to lie to myself but to all of you as well. In the past it seemed easy to lie to myself, It's o.k. I didn't really eat that much more than I should. It's only one bag of chips, one Pepsi for now. Until ultimately It was one of those really big bags of chips from Costco and 4/5 Pepsi's a night. It's no wonder I found myself in this position again but things really feel different now. I don't feel alone dealing with this problem anymore. The family has even starting to follow along a bit easier now. I'm the one they look too now for the weekly meal plan. That feels amazing!!!
I've also come to realize that this journal isn't about just my eating habits. I thought that when I started this that all it would be but it isn't. I now know that the process involves everything in my life. That's why this week has been the toughest yet. It is also affected by those things in life that cause us stress. In my case the biggest stresser has been my need to find work. The stress had me looking for my comfort zone this week and we all know that's food. I've been on other interviews in the last year but didn't get the jobs and until you've bee unemployed for a year, I don't think you can fully understand the degree of stress it puts on one. Even now after yesterday's interview went so positively, there is still another level to go through and I still might not get the job. I have been there before, at the last stage of the process and someone else got the job. Now I have to meet with the owner of the company and if he likes me I'm in. You want to keep positive all the time but it's tough. That's the stress that makes me want to run for a large pizza, a steak and pepperoni sub with the sauce on the side (from La Belle Province) or anything else that's gotten me here. But, I won't do it. It would make me feel good for now however in the long run I know it's not what's best for me. So I'll refrain and save it up to treat myself next weekend with my annual Nachos for Superbowl and make it a celebration too cause I'm going to lock down this job.
So to the final point. It's the end of week three and how did I do. Well from the earlier paragraphs, I know it doesn't sound to good, so how bad is it really? You be the judge and check out this weeks photo.
Ya you see right, it says 279lbs. That's a pound and a half less than last week. I know it's not a lot but it is certainly better than I expected. So for three weeks now I have consistently loss weight. I have now gone from 297lbs to 279lbs. That looks really funny doesn't it the reversal of the 97 to 79. I'll take it any day. That's a total of 18lbs and it feels great. This week I even wore pants to the interview that I haven't been able to wear in a year. These are the things along with all your support that are keeping me motivated. I will achieve my goal in a year to be just under 200lbs, I can see it. Next week it's not just my weight but my monthly measurements, so we'll see how much if any inches I have lost and I know there is some. Until then,
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from you goals!!
Thanx,
Looper
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