Well here it is the end of week 3 ans what a sh**ty week it was for me. I spent most of the week sick and not eating much of anything. When I was feeling better I ate wrong and paid for it and I gave into temptation. How much worst could a week be for someone trying t make a lifestyle change? You could add the stress of job interviews since I've been out of a real job for a year now. That's the kind of week it's been for me. Oh, and lets not forget because of being sick I really wasn't what you would can very active on the exercise front. It certainly makes it a little harder to stay motivated when it's that tough. I guess these are the things that make it hard for everyone to stay the course. As focused as I am now on my health, weight and the things I need to do to improve all that it's still hard.
What I find that's making this whole process easier is this journal (blog). It forces me to really look at the things that are going on in my life, recognize them and confront them. I know I've already said this a few times now but it really does bare repeating again and again. Sharing with all of you (and there are many more than I ever expected) has kept me honest. honest with myself and everyone following the blog. I've been touched by the support that not only don't I want to lie to myself but to all of you as well. In the past it seemed easy to lie to myself, It's o.k. I didn't really eat that much more than I should. It's only one bag of chips, one Pepsi for now. Until ultimately It was one of those really big bags of chips from Costco and 4/5 Pepsi's a night. It's no wonder I found myself in this position again but things really feel different now. I don't feel alone dealing with this problem anymore. The family has even starting to follow along a bit easier now. I'm the one they look too now for the weekly meal plan. That feels amazing!!!
I've also come to realize that this journal isn't about just my eating habits. I thought that when I started this that all it would be but it isn't. I now know that the process involves everything in my life. That's why this week has been the toughest yet. It is also affected by those things in life that cause us stress. In my case the biggest stresser has been my need to find work. The stress had me looking for my comfort zone this week and we all know that's food. I've been on other interviews in the last year but didn't get the jobs and until you've bee unemployed for a year, I don't think you can fully understand the degree of stress it puts on one. Even now after yesterday's interview went so positively, there is still another level to go through and I still might not get the job. I have been there before, at the last stage of the process and someone else got the job. Now I have to meet with the owner of the company and if he likes me I'm in. You want to keep positive all the time but it's tough. That's the stress that makes me want to run for a large pizza, a steak and pepperoni sub with the sauce on the side (from La Belle Province) or anything else that's gotten me here. But, I won't do it. It would make me feel good for now however in the long run I know it's not what's best for me. So I'll refrain and save it up to treat myself next weekend with my annual Nachos for Superbowl and make it a celebration too cause I'm going to lock down this job.
So to the final point. It's the end of week three and how did I do. Well from the earlier paragraphs, I know it doesn't sound to good, so how bad is it really? You be the judge and check out this weeks photo.
Ya you see right, it says 279lbs. That's a pound and a half less than last week. I know it's not a lot but it is certainly better than I expected. So for three weeks now I have consistently loss weight. I have now gone from 297lbs to 279lbs. That looks really funny doesn't it the reversal of the 97 to 79. I'll take it any day. That's a total of 18lbs and it feels great. This week I even wore pants to the interview that I haven't been able to wear in a year. These are the things along with all your support that are keeping me motivated. I will achieve my goal in a year to be just under 200lbs, I can see it. Next week it's not just my weight but my monthly measurements, so we'll see how much if any inches I have lost and I know there is some. Until then,
Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from you goals!!
Thanx,
Looper
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