Bad Week

Hi All,
     Like the title says it's been a bad week. In the end I think I broke all my rules for success. Everyday was something different. From how I felt and not eating properly or enough to a 1/2 bag of chips in the middle of the night last night. This must be like other things you hear about such as giving up smoking. Somewhere around the 3rd or 4th week you are stressed by the whole thing. Either you get through it or you break. This week I broke a little for a whole bunch or reason (most of which I spoke about all week long). For me the biggest factor has been stress. I've been extremely stressed about finding work and the processes you have to go through to get the job. Not to mention the amount of time it seems to take during the interview process. You spend so much time waiting for some kind of response. Lately the responses in the end have not been positive. You spend so much time invested in the process, you make it to the end and finally you don't get the job. This takes a lot out of your self esteem. We all know what's next, your self esteem is low and you need to find a way to feel good. Food is the answer or at least in the past it has been for me.
    
     In my case this week that has been the pattern I would follow. Last Saturday I had yet again another positive interview with good feedback. The prospective employer indicated that she wanted me to go forward in the process to the last step and meet the owner of the company. I was supposed to wait for her contact this week to set up the final step. Day after day went by with no word and day after day my self esteem would shrink. Finally yesterday I initiated contact looking for some indication that the process was still to continue or not. Late in the day I received word that I was still in the running for the job but it was too late. My self esteem was low and I just needed something to pick me up. Maybe I should have used some of this week suggestions in place of the food like going for a swim. It's possible that might have made me feel better but until next time I'll never know.

      Tomorrow is weigh in day and since it's the end of week four it is also my monthly measurements. I don't suspect that I lost anything this week. On the contrary I fear I might have gain a little back. However my measurements should have had some reduction as I am certain that I did not gain all of it back. After all most of the week I didn't eat enough and it was only yesterday that I ate poorly. We will just have to wait and see. So until tomorrow;

Have a good one, keep strong and don't let little setbacks keep you from your goals!

Thanx,
Looper